ArOuND

There has been a lot of bullshit around me these days. I feel I can't deal with it. But actually somewhere deep in my heart whenever I think this I hear that all this bullshit aint gonna stick around me for a ling time. As a matter of fact it has made me stronger. What doesn't kill me will just make me stronger. I would love to get out of this shit as soon as possible. But don't know why the more I care the more I think about it the more I sink in deeper in it!! I feel like i should let it loose and let it go and allow myself to live back my freedom. Yeah I will do that the day I get out of this bullshit people who passed by me without giving a damn will repent ya I'm getting over this bullshit but not the bullshitters. Yeah they gonna repent and yeah there's revenge on my mind!!!

UnDeRsTaNd!!!

They ask me to understand and deal with the situations I'm facing right now. They are right and their point but in their view. But I feel like "what are you saying!! does it make any sense??" I'm just so in a fix state of my mind I cant think of anything. Simply do my work keeping things to myself suppressing my words and listening to whatever they say is just not me!! It feels like I'm killing the real me and i feel it will soon happen. As my 9 month life here at this place is where the real me can't survive anymore. He cries yet tries. Put's his thoughts to a side yet gets no ride by anyone's side. I feel lonely and lost in darkness in this bright sunny day in a street full of people!!