Silence

I know I act cool composed and a bastard all the time to display that i was just a little bit of my hater side to stay on the stronger part of people. But deep inside I felt alone and cursed. I could laugh with people, laugh at people and also make people laugh but no one actually could make me smile in the geniunie way. I felt all alone there was not muct to say to it about anyone because it  is one of those times when i really miss everything in the past.

I had no one i could look upto as a friend. Tell my real problems and someone who could make me laugh at them. I dont blame anyone for this condition of mine but oww well! There was no one that even cared! And neither did I want anyones sympathy over my things. Over time I came to realize that people were not what they said they would be. All the promises of being togeter standing for one another were shit to remember!

I was actually a bit happy with my condotion because it introduced to one of the most beautiful things in the universe "silence". It probably made ne feel like i was happy within me. May be silence is what tought me to fall in love with myself. I guess I'm just more bit of with the quote saying "before you speak try and think is that what you are about to speak is more beautiful then silence itself".